BLISS

“I feel I’m on a vacation” I say when someone recently asked me how I was doing in my recent place of posting. And when I said it I definitely wanted to add “touchwood” (which apparently I have no clue why people say that) probably because it gets good luck and avoids the so called “nazar”. Well frankly I don’t give a damn to the nazar of insignificant and inconsequential beings. I guess its their nazar that have got me to this place of posting in the first place. And because I get to live this blissful life so surprising to me as well, I need to illustrate more about it ,for no other purpose but to probably read about it when I go back to being or rather acting busy and behaving as if the world rest on my shoulders in my next tenures. So the best part of this vacation cum work posting is that I get to do firstly something I really joined this job for “Fly” and do nothing else. The last phrase being a real surprise to my brothers located else where in the country probably getting to fly definitely more than me but also doing some real additional jobs no one had a clue would exhaust the fuck out of their minds and time building up not only layers of fat on their bellies but a unknown pressure a real freaking pressure in their heads asking them everyday ..every second moment … : what the fuck are you doing??? Is this what you signed up for?? 

So here I m doing this 7 to 1430 job as a factory pilot, flying exactly in my working hours, and for the first time in my life I don’t have any urge of spending even a second extra in my work place for no matter what the reason is . The job expects me to be fighting ready for war but that’s only if the war is happening.. as if now there isn’t so I rightly need to have my lunch on time. This simple fact seems to be some alien theory in most of the other places I have worked before. But then its not only about having fixed working hours and getting lunch on time. Its about realizing life s real priorities. Its about becoming a better person every passing day , which definitely does not mean getting good at my JOB but about having a better life to live for me and the people I choose to surround myself with. Something that we keep reading in all self help books…and keep seeing in all movies themed “go live ur life” …’spend more time with your family’ ...’spend more time on yourself’ …well…its just got true for me .. my son no longer gives me that stranger look of weather should I trust this person who I used to got to see once a day and used to disappear for every 15 days suddenly . I get to teach him the skills I dreamt of teaching him and be that first person whom he cries on for anything..just anything…

Words cannot describe the feeling when you conquer something you fear.. or were terrified about.. and it happened in my case when me a below average runner became a marathon runner and found a calling for running. Running those half marathons , with the first one being the most special, it wasn’t the results that mattered to me..they still don’t do… it’s the overcoming of that fear …makes you feel elated…and what we call as Nirvana…you no longer are scared..and that feeling is something no money in world can buy you . im no longer scared to experiment and push my body beyond my comfort limits. I rather never knew nor still don’t know how much my body can push itself… but those unreal aims just got real for me.

I have never out rightly excelled in any field but its time I realized its not about winning its about the spirit and the completion is only yourself and no one else. Because no one is actually interested in what to do or achieve , they can only cheer for you or simply be jealous. You need to be a better person and better runner than what you were previously. 

The place has been magical so far, taking out hidden aspects of my personality that I never thought I had. But then at then at the end of the day , does the place matter or was it just a reason for me to start living a new life , well whatever it is.. I no longer judge people/… I no longer have any hidden agendas on my mind.. I no longer procrastinate…. I no longer WISH I did this… and I no longer wait for the right time ..you just have to make the time right !!!!