ITS ALL ABT THE HEART!!!!
Sitting in the bar ALONE … yes alone !!!! im rightin this blog … its one of the most memorable days of my stay in this jungle that im sittin alone here in this stingy corner ,with no one to CRIB along with .. well!! Yes thts wat we pilots in the airforce do rite .. crib…. Crib n crib.. abt the service as to how low waged we are … no OFFICER like rooms available … ..crib abt the senior hierarchy .. “ as the airforce seems to have gone to the dogs” wen will some good leader come and change the freaking things here .. when will we get leave… wen we want .. wen will we be posted to the places of our desires ..n so on n so forth …
In a way it was better sitting alone and be away from the normal crib session tht follows in this sacred place called the BAR …well yes I call it sacred … coz long ago a CO told me .. “ yaar bar is a mandir ..go thr n worship every nite ..it ll solve all your problems” .. how very true .. alcohol does solve our problems or maybe DISSOLVES them atleast!!!! Hmm !!! so sitting alone I did the most weird thing one can do in the bar .. switch on the TV n tune it to a popular HINDI movie channel … n there was shahrukh khan walkin his way on the screen n preaching his usual “ Anjali ..hamesha apne Dil ki sunah … dimag ki nahi” … n believe it or not I actually start pondering on this most unwanted ..cheesy dialogue … well yeah!!! I realize no matter wat happens… in times of decision making .. there are two types of people in this world ..one who follow their brains… n second who follow their heart .. wow!!! Wer do I stand … pondering more wit the third peg of my scotch ( well yes I only have scotch now a days courtesy the 6th pay commission) I proudly belong to the latter lot of people .. when was the last time I took a logical decision exercising my BRAIN …. which mattered to me the most .. a decision that could change my life forever … NEVER!!!!!
1. I joined NDA seeing TOPGUN and desired to be the next maverick riding my bike through the streets wit all chicks ready to kiss me at one glance.. well I don’t know whether I became maverick or not but yeah .. tht institution transformed me into a man … a man who could now appreciate the finer details of our miserable world… n man who could understand the meaning of terms like ..LOYALTY …INTEGRITY …. CAMRADERIE … FRIENDSHIP….lookin back all I can say is its all abt the heart !!!!!
2. Sitting in the big hall waiting for the decision … as to wat was decided for me … was I a better option for becoming a TRANSPORT pilot or a CHOPPER pilot ..( well I was rejected from becoming a fighter pilot due to reasons only two people know ..god n my instructor!!!) I was alloated the elite transport stream … though I had got wat I wanted as I had opted for the same … I realized that all my FRIENDS( coursemates) whom I was close with in the academy had suddenly (ALL of them )got choppers and were gonna leave me forever .. today wen look back I still don’t know what had gone through my mind or wat was I thinking when I raised my hand in front of the chief flying instructor ( a persona who was capable enough to make u piss in ur pants) asking for a change of stream … “ well son y are u askin for a change .. when you have got what u had opted?” ..well!! yes …I had got wat I had opted … but how could I say tht ..” sir my all my friends are goin t o choppers and I ll never be able to meet them ever” I kept quiet … n after a 10 sec pause …” well sir … I have changed my mind in the past 1 week after I had given my options .. I really wanna go n fly the choppers” …what the hell!!!! I actually said that ..this could have the most unimaginable repercussions for me .. I could have been thrown out of the hall … looked down for being an indecisive idiot … my instructor would have hated me through out his life ……... the same FRIENDS I was running after were all lookin at me wit an unimaginable n non descriptive expression by now … … n guess wat … the CFI just smirked ……..today I have completed 4 yrs in the helicopter stream … today again as I look back … I m not in touch wit anyone of those so called friends I was scared of losing… but then at that time they meant the world to me … after all its all abt the heart !!!!
